Wednesday June 21, 2017
From an interview with Lidia Yuknavitch on http://www.bloom-site.com
We don’t have much to say to each other
with these things
with these words
broken and frayed
and drunk on vowels
We speak body-to-body
sweaty sheets wound round
thighs and arms and
you touch me with the
conviction I’ve always
wanted to be wanted
in this articulation
When we walk down the
street you are distant
one hand on the handlebars
of your bicycle
I’m not used to this
arrangement of hard
K’s and V’s and
you disorient me
with your vague
song lyrics of the
band I wish I knew
I am gutted when
you stop calling
because I’ve only known
this body-to-body to mean
It’s two years before I
know the true taste of sweetness
of gentle whispered w’s and a’s
Thursday June 15, 2017
Ancient Wisdom, Modern World
The Dalai Lama
You occasionally wonder about what it might be like to be a sister of the holy order of the Arbutus. They live in a thick forest, in an abbey built of three different kinds of sacred wood no one knows the names of. They are not your traditional nuns, these sisters. They can still have sex, for one, and for two, they question morals and books and all that is sworn to be truth. Sister Lupe even has a husband back in Argentina, but they are happier apart with what she calls “conjugal visits” six times a year. Their creed is long, but one of your favourites is that no one shall ever suck in their tummy.
Sunday June 11, 2017
From an interview with Maia Szalavitz in The Sun
Lonnie tempts herself by placing three chocolate eggs on the coffee table in front of her. No sugar, no dairy, no gluten, no soda, no processed foods, no oil, no nuts. Lots of rice cakes. A few cups of black coffee. Kelly brought chocolate when she came to visit – stale Easter eggs. It’s August. Lonnie wonders if they are starting to melt. She images eating them.
Thursday June 8, 2017
Overheard at Sheraton Vancouver Wall Centre
“It’s okay if you want to cry. I can see that you’re – ”
“I’m not going to cry.” Dan smacks my hand away from his face.
His flight leaves in three hours and we haven’t decided if I’m taking him to the airport or he’s going in a taxi. Public transit is now no longer an option.
“I could still come with you?” I look at my toes.
“No. No… I need to do this alone,” he says, finally making eye contact. Tears brimming.
“Why won’t you let me support you?” I try not to sound like I’m asking something of him. Everyone is asking something of him.
“I’m trying, Gem, but it’s just like – … I don’t even know what I need so how am I supposed to tell you what I – …”
His phone rings. It’s Joanne, his stepmother. Everything in the room gets very still
Sunday June 4, 2017
Years Later, I Go Back To Thank You
He lowers his eyes
and I know that he’s
thinking of the space between
clavicle and neck
the tender taste
of summer skin
sweat and watermelon
salt and sunscreen
“Look at me” I say
the unfamiliar crack
He raises his eyes
forest floor of longing
stretching the width
of this city
reaching up towards
Friday June 2, 2017
Freeing the Natural Voice
“What are you getting at?” Ben puts his hands in his pockets. That’s never a good sign.
“I just…” My mouth is pasty. My knees are weak. My heart is beating like I’m running, but I’m still.
“Spit it out, Caroline,” Ben says, shifting his weight from one foot to the other.
“I want to go by myself.”
He steps back, putting more space between us. Maybe he understands.
“We bought our plane tickets,” Ben says in a soft voice.
“I know, I know… You can go, too! But, I want to travel alone. I need to do this. I really need to do this.” I will tears not to come. Please please please.
“This is fucked.” Ben walks into the bedroom and slams the door.
Thursday June 1, 2017
Monica makes the sign of the cross and sits down at her desk. She wonders if she’ll have the courage to do it today. The phone rings.
“Dr. Kent’s office, how may I help you?” Her voice sounds different here than at home, when she’s talking to Bozo or singing to the radio as she makes dinner.
“I need to speak to Dr. Kent right away,” says the woman on the other end of the line.
“Dr. Kent is with a patient at present. Might I pass along a message?” Monica reaches for her green tea and sips it. It’s cold.
“I just read something online about how stress hormones can cross the placenta and reach the babies? I’m freaking out! This has been the most stressful three months of my life. It’s bad enough to give one child issues, but two?! I need to speak to – ”
“Take a deep breath. In through your nose and out through your mouth.” Monica rolls her eyes.