Saturday August 17, 2019
OK I give you my whole heart and expect nothing in return
even if now I am without a whole heart and don’t I need
one of those?
I remember E.R saying that as soon as she gets any money
she gives it away because holding it means she doesn’t
believe she will ever have any more and giving it away
when she has it makes sense because it was never hers to
begin with. Not fully. It belongs, she says, to the whole
So do I give my whole heart to the whole world in exchange
for nothing and
hope believe that what I need will come to me? As if we might all give our whole hearts to the whole world and then take a tiny piece from every heart out there floating until they fill the empty space in our souls, the one where our own hearts used to live?
In the act of giving I am making space to receive and in the act
of receiving, I am giving someone else the gift of their giving.
I do not give all my money away but I do not know if that is the
most useful thing I can give right now. The most useful thing
I can give right now is my whole heart. If we are all out there
grasping at bits, then I must give my whole heart freely so there
are more pieces out there to hold.