“You can see my baby’s heartbeat” by Julia in the fishbowl

Wednesday January 29, 2020
11:29am
5 minutes
The Kingdom of God
Teddy Macker

We go walking, lighter in the step I guess we know where the weight should be
I see every baby and they see me as if we were part of the same club
He notices and laughs because the baby whisperer is here, out, walking around
I respond as if I don’t believe him but I do because of all the seeing that is going on
Tiny humans jerked from their previous commitment to put their attention on the heart pumping, passing by
We lock eyes like two long lost friends, aware of how well we still know each other
He laughs and laughs and loves me with the squeeze around my shoulder, the stop to kiss and smile into my mouth
I think he sees our baby’s heartbeat in the space we’re holding for it, in the eyes of every heart synching with mine
We go walking, lightly, barely touching the ground and for the first time in days the sun is showing what she can do, casting a glow on the whole park and
splashing back up at us so we almost forget
that days and days have gone by with rain, without her