Monday June 17, 2019
dad wants to see me
pay for my flight wants to see me
I speak to him on the phone and I tell him don’t worry
about the money right now
but I dont think my narcisism will rest if I let it believe that he just wants us all there together.
I was just there.
Last month I was there and we saw each other for 3 Sunday lunches in a row and 3 Monday dinners.
I chose to live far away.
I didn’t realize how often I’d want to go back.
Summer in the city is packed with juice. I like to be there for that so I can suck it dry, let it crust on my chin.
I don’t want to say no because of money but money becauses me much more than I’d like it to.
It’s always more than it says and the deals come with an asterisk.