“sucking everything in.” by Julia at her desk

Tuesday August 6, 2019
6:50pm
5 minutes
Across This Body
Jeni De La O

I don’t know how many days I will write about time and
how many minutes

When i pour my coffee for the 3rd time you wait and
smile cause oh you see yourself in it

I never had addictions until i met you
I never smoked a thing until that night

And darlin’ I will wait for another puff
if it means you’re the one passing it to me

I don’t know how many days I will love this line
or the next one that inevitably follows

When i stumble on a phrase I like better than the feeling
it occupies inside of every swallow

I never had addictions until i met you
I never smoked a thing until that night

And darlin’ I will write this way till mornin’
Cause I’ve got the best obsession in front of me

I don’t know how many days I’ll write about time
and how many hours

When I dance for you after all the years of sucking in
you smile at my body of work and of beauty

I never had addictions until i met you
I never smoked a thing until that night

And darlin’ I will hold on to forever and again
if it means that you’re holding back to me

I never had addictions until i met you
and now you’re the one thing on my mind

“blows a kiss” by Julia on her couch


Friday December 13, 2013
1:42am
5 minutes
metro weekend December 14-15, 2013

She’s too sweet like a bag of candy from the bulk barn. You think you’re going to get sick of the sweetness, but then you see the bag there and you just can’t help yourself. You’re an addict for it, and you know you’ve had better quality than this before. You keep forgetting for a split second how unsubstantial it is, how filled with sugar to mask the lack of flavour. She’s like that. She’s one of those small doses, don’t miss it till you have it again and realize it’s been too long since you’ve had it in the first place. You keep hoping each bite will taste slightly different, maybe a touch of mint, you convince yourself was in the last attempt. She’s like that. She let’s you eat her up and think about how she’s doing absolutely nothing good for you. She’s not a cleanse, or a diet. She’s not a New Year’s resolution, or a necessary amount of nutrients for your daily intake. She’s nothing and everything, and she consumes you the way you consume her. The way you forget to make a proper meal for yourself because your body is tricked into feeling full after just one or two handfuls. Then before you know it, it’s past the hour you thought you’d be sleeping by, and it all seems so hard to stop.

“Featured Products” by Julia at El Cafecito


Thursday, November 28, 2013 at El Cafecito
3:18pm
5 minutes
http://www.pashop.com

I’ve been on a particular website, I won’t name names cause I’m embarrassed, but for maybe hours now. I haven’t eaten one single solitary thing all day, because you can’t count a decaf latte, and I don’t even feel the hunger anymore. It’s like my drive kicked in and all I need is to watch…those…videos….no, not videos! Just the “featured products” on the site….not videos! That’s stupid! There’s nothing worth talking about with regards to the videos. In fact, what videos? Ha! I’ll tell you they’d just be the regular type if they were being watched at all! I’d just have to say that the “products” being “featured” are really addictive. Sort of in a way that makes you feel satisfied and content without having to do anything yourself. And I mean, just looking at them, not watching them, because they’re not videos. Above all else I feel relief. Just a lot of relief and excitement about my next coming hours, not necessarily revolving around the same thing, but just knowing I saw them….knowing I witnessed them in some form, not in a moving picture form, I told you, just…Oh I wish I could tell you. I wish you would understand, but you won’t. You won’t and then things will only be medium good. I’ll be thinking about how you don’t understand and I won’t be able to enjoy it the same way at all.