“at least don’t hate them” by Sasha at Knowlton Lake

Tuesday April 7, 2020
5 minutes
quoted by Dunya Mikhail

I wonder why I always want more
than I can get. I revisit the charts again
and again, screenshotted on my stupid phone.
I find the words amongst the videos of rain, of Lola walking, of bird calls.

I zoom in on Pluto this and what she needs from a mate is support
I’ve committed certain lines to memory now, a tattoo on the back of my eyelids.
Close them and dream close them and become
close them and feel what is true.

The wind outside is gusting
the house yawns in response. I curl my toes
underneath my body and feel inside my teeth.

There’s a neediness.
Oh yes welcome that need and find the way
to spin it to gold fleece
Wear it as a glittering sweater
Feel how it keeps me warm