“This is a” by Sasha in the house on Nassau Street

Monday November 18, 2019
5 minutes
From an email

This is an apology wrapped in yesterday’s newspaper
left on the stoop of your house, leaves collecting
around it’s frayed edges, dampness spreading
across the surface. This is what I wish I could’ve said.

I’m trying to say I’m sorry less. My father told
me at dinner on Sunday that he thinks my proclivity towards
apologizing comes from trauma and that this only
occurred to him recently. I agree, I say, and I do.
I’ve been working with this already, I say, and I have.

Even with the current commitment to saying sorry less
I still need to apologize to you . We have different
relationships to “sorry” and maybe that’s also due to trauma.