“In this realm of,” By Sasha at Knowlton Lake

Saturday November 9, 2019
5:11pm
5 minutes
St. Sebastian
Tony Hoagland

I bake an angel food cake with all the sweet misgivings
I serve it with strawberries and softly whipped cream
We eat quietly
Deliberately
Eyes flicking from plate to you and back again 

I want for nothing but the sound of your chewing

I want for nothing but the pillow on my tongue 

I stack the dishes in the sink to do later
Tomorrow maybe
I run water and crumbs are swept down the drain
Goodbye tiny misgiving morsels
Farewell to you and you and you and you

You stoke the fire
Open the damper
Add a big log 

My hands are still sticky
From the sugar and the egg whites
My hands are still sticky
From all the things I am unable to truly
Let go of

My hands are still sticky
From your bodily things that I crave
And despise and crave again