“it doesn’t experience rejection” by Sasha in her living room

Thursday October 24, 2019
9:05pm
5 minutes
The Tao Of Warren Buffett
Mary Buffett & David Clark

I’ve got nothing tonight
all runny nose and empty
chapped lips and thirsty
fingers don’t know the tune
let alone the rhythm
let alone the plot

I’ll tell myself it’s fine
there’s nothing left to do
sink full of dishes doesn’t matter
and it doesn’t that’s true

I made a pot of lentil soup today
soothe my sick
went to freeze two containers
once it’d cooled
only to discover there were already
two containers
of the same soup
in the freezer

Twelve times a day at least
I think about how I would freeze time
if I could
memorize the arch of her eyebrow
the curl of her smile
the way her half moon eyes
cast a shadow of eyelashes
when she’s sleeping in my arms

This is the hardest work I’ll ever do
and no one sees it
The immensity of the loneliness
grips my guts
holds my throat

I find my own face in the reflection
in the window
the late fall garden
on the other side
of the glass