“You know how advice is.” by Sasha at her desk

Thursday July 4, 2019
6:52pm
5 minutes
From a quote by John Steinbeck

People tell you that it’s going to be hard (true)
and that you won’t sleep for years (not true)
that you won’t know your face in the way that
you once did (maybe)

People tell you that it’s like your heart
is forever outside your body (true)
and that suddenly the world looks different (true)
and that you won’t know your lover like
you once did (true)

People tell you that the time flies (maybe)
and that your body doesn’t feel like your own (not true)
and that you won’t know your heart
like you once did (not true)

“You know how advice is.” by Julia at her desk

Thursday July 4, 2019
5:48pm
5 minutes
From a quote by John Steinbeck

It’s usually hot and swift like a shot
to the throat, rusty, at best, mistimed
And here I should be on my knees
swallowing
thank you for the wisdom, dripping down
into my guts
You mix with me until I can’t feel my
own hunger pangs
you’re the one speaking now, my stomach
the house you spread the gospel in

I did not ask for this and then again
maybe I did with a quivering lip the
way you’ve learned to decode as Somebody
Decide For Me, Make This Moment Stop
Hurting So much
Did I ask for this? Standing slumped
unworthy of my own back bone straight
and arrow into my lungs where the
breathing is supposed to go

It’s something you want to say but
I don’t need to hear, masked as a
kindness, the way new addictions
come in the prettiest of boxes
I learn to separate myself out
of the equation the whole time
wondering why nothing seems to
add up anymore

Me here with your hand up my
skull, flapping my face around
while I recite the script you wrote