“I’m not sure” by Julia in her bed

Monday May 28, 2018
11:19pm
5 minutes
From an email

I never know what you mean when you say a thing

Toss out the core and tear away the meat

I do not know what is at the base of you

Not sure what you eat for breakfast and who you pray to when the rain forgets to come

I think I know because I think I know everything but I don’t really know. I’d like to meet the person who does. Maybe they could tell me how to read without falling asleep. How to apologize to god without giving too much away.

“I’m not sure” by Sasha at her desk

Monday May 28, 2018
10:56pm
5 minutes
From an email

I’m not sure what you mean when you say that you’re going to “quit life”. I know you don’t mean off yourself, that wouldn’t be your style. I know that I stopped going to see you after a few weeks – I hate hospitals! I’m sorry! I made it so many times in those first weeks and… I’m sorry. I really am. You need to get it together and recognize the progress that you’ve made, Eileen. One day at a time, you know?! You can’t expect yourself to recover overnight. You need to be patient. Look. I’ll come and see you a few times a week, I’ll bring a DVD, or some takeout, and we’ll hang out, okay? Maybe you’re lonely. That’s probably it.