“FREE” by Julia on her couch

Saturday November 12, 2016
5 minutes
from a vice magazine

They say
Are always free
Except they’re not are they
They’re not

I walk by you on the crowded street you make eye contact with me for too long I feel like you might be dangerous I smile at you because I don’t want to look afraid or weak or deceased
I injure myself in front of other people and I smile through the pain so no one knows just how much I’m hurting just how much I am human just how much I feel
I have to say no to someone but I can’t just say no to them I have to make sure they feel valued and validated and big and strong and important and so when I say it I say it with a smile